The darkness of my depression turned me into a self-loathing, unhappy and unfulfilled person. I knew intuitively I wasn’t destined to live in pain, so I started seeking self-healing practices outside of my culture.
The Challenge I became opened to different modalities of healing. I started diving into the use of psychedelics for healing and growth. In 2016, I sat in my first Ayahusaca ceremony. My life as I knew it was forever changed. Ayahuasca opened me up a different way of being. Several months later I found myself in the same toxic thought patterns and behaviors because I wasn’t integrating. This eventually led to an even darker period of my life.
The Transformation
In 2019, after taking some time off psychedelics, I came back to sit with Mother Aya and had an ego death experience. I was humbled by this and for the first time I started to integrate the experience. The next 6 months, I was devoted to my integration, I cut myself off from my friends, stopped drinking, started therapy, practicing yoga, meditation and eating healthier.
Because I wasn’t integrating prior, I was missing the messages from my ceremonies. It wasn’t until I started working with a mentor that I started having shifts. This inspired me to do the same for others and guide them in their journeys.